expansive change

I originally started this blog to write about my experiences in life. It turned into a chronic illness blog soon after because that was what consumed my life at a point. I've since gotten better and my life is fuller than that singular thing I was fixated on for the past few years. So, now …

Feeling in the Silence

"I have to remind myself that this is happening when I wake up in the morning," a parent said to me during our tutoring progress update phone call. A routine call, but nothing routine about the circumstances of today. But doesn't this feel familiar somehow? The mornings, when you first wake up peacefully unencumbered by …

Identity Crisis Round Two: Ways to Find Yourself

A few months ago, I went through an identity crisis. Again. The first one was when I was becoming ill; when I was losing so many parts of myself to my illnesses. This crisis, however, was different. I'd come to a point in my chronic illness recovery (or whatever the heck you want to call …

Fill Your Cup

"Show me love, fill my cup the world's not empty it's how you want it to be" -Repeat by Young The Giant "You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of yourself first." -Anonymous I've been thinking about the future lately-- graduation, what comes after, etc. Because of my illnesses, I am not going …

Strength In Vulnerability

I read my friend's blog post about vulnerability a couple weeks ago (Vulnerability by Troy L. Wilkinson), and this concept has been percolating in my head for a while. Like Troy said, vulnerability makes people real.  None of us have everything put together, even if it may seem so from the outside.  All of us …

The Why Behind the What

I like summer because it is full of possibilities.  We are no longer tied to the day to day rhythm of school that we may get sucked into.  Now, I have space and time to examine my life more thoroughly. It's easy to get caught up in the drudgery of waking up to your beeping …

The Many Lives I Would Like to Live

Ever since I was little, I've wanted to do many things.  I wanted to be an astronomer, a vet, a teacher, or a writer.  I've wanted to live in California, Colorado, New York, or Vermont.  I've wanted to go to school in New Zealand, Spain, Japan, or Great Britain.  And yes, I can do all …

Perspective

I remember back in high school when I couldn't see more than my life at the moment.  My world was Trabuco Hills High School, lacrosse, my group of friends, and my family at home.  I really didn't think about people outside my small little circle.  I didn't have much of a worldview.  I mean, sure, …