What’s Working For Me Right Now (September 2020)

The medications, supplements, and treatments working for me this year.

Feeling in the Silence

"I have to remind myself that this is happening when I wake up in the morning," a parent said to me during our tutoring progress update phone call. A routine call, but nothing routine about the circumstances of today. But doesn't this feel familiar somehow? The mornings, when you first wake up peacefully unencumbered by …

A Year Ago Today

Last year, to the day, I crossed the threshold into my childhood home in California, with all my possessions from Colorado waiting patiently to be unpacked in the rented yellow Penske truck in our driveway. My dog was howling happily as she reacquainted herself with our other two dogs and my parents were bringing in …

May Linkup

A while ago, I found the blog called "A Chronic Voice." I loved the articles the page shared on Facebook and after looking into the website further, I found these Linkup Parties, where chronic illness bloggers write about certain prompts each month. This will be my first time participating in a Linkup, and I'm excited …

Illness Doesn’t Have To Be A Scapegoat

Sometimes I find myself blaming all the problems in my life on my illnesses. However, there are things in my life that are just parts of life, parts of post-grad life, parts unrelated to my chronic illness, and yet complicated by it at the same time. But throwing all these problems into the bucket of …

But You Look Fine

Fairly recently, I had this weird experience where a person with a chronic illness threw the “but you look fine!” line on me. I am pretty certain I didn’t respond. In fact, I don’t really recall what happened afterwards because I was in shock. Isn’t it chronic illness code that we don’t say that to …

Identity Crisis Round Two: Ways to Find Yourself

A few months ago, I went through an identity crisis. Again. The first one was when I was becoming ill; when I was losing so many parts of myself to my illnesses. This crisis, however, was different. I'd come to a point in my chronic illness recovery (or whatever the heck you want to call …

I’ll Be Fine

I've been more active lately, as in I've been more social. I'm doing things. Things after work instead of lying on the couch, fatigued and in pain. I've been hanging out with friends. Plus, thrift shopping last week and to the dog park this week. And the poppies last weekend. I've been experiencing much fuller …